Trust is always taken advantage of, and it doesnt take long for people to see that and use someone elses trust. Like a pack of fucking zombies, they leech off person to person untill they too become a worthless, emotionless hole. wondering why they ever trusted anyone. Maybe its that final snap that makes reality set in for a second, and you realize then that you are no different.  But you are different, right? You grew up in an isolated environment, not getting the normal emotional effects of society. So you create an image of what its like and base your thoughts and dreams off that. Like you did when you were young. Every kid wants to be a superhero or a firefighter or space man. Why though? because they are told they can be anything they want. You tell me how the fuck some poor ass college kid with no rich family or good credit is going to be a damn spaceman. Hell no, that shit wouldnt ever happen. i realize this has become a rant. maybe what i nedd. My girlfriend made out with some dude at a party adn didnt tell me till 2 weeks later. just like my last bitch ass girlfriend. why am i attracted to people that do this shit? or is it my theory on trust? I was just attacked by a zombie and didnt even know it. A media controlled, fed, sheeple. I swear man, i let my mind go sometimes. I think of crazy shit and laugh at it. Like what if the media actually influences kids as they grow up to bedifferent. like only buy certain brands of stuff. or only put money in a certain bank. It totally could happen. I swear. Drake says “YOLO” and everyone doesnt ever quick saying YOLO. like what the fuck? youve seriously never heard somone say you only live once? Or were you just that dumb and didnt realize it? people get dumber and dumber every year. I wish there was a sweet secluded place somewhere i could move to so that i wouldnt have to deal with peoples shit. Icould choose who i have to associate with. cut out mainstream life. they can struggle all their life for the “American Dream”. Ive got mine bitches! Its called free living, i dont need the shit you think you need, the shit your fed to need by the media, I have my own opinion. I dont let rap songs and reality tv affect me. I dont buy into cheap ass commercials and advertising. Im extremely open minded too, about alot of stuff. Like abortions, and racsims, and all kinds of other contrioversial topics. They interest me because it shows who is a real person and who isnt. You can fight to defend what you belive in but shouldnt you also realize things about the other side and learn about it too? I dont know man, life doesnt really make sense though, at least not how its going lately. my state of mind has just been blah. I feel like i need a change, something really new.